At a certain hour, not now, not ever, neither here, nor there, cast adrift in the garden amid the gales swaying enchanted aspens like quills shimmering the writ of whispers untold, I held his hand!a boy, thine hope, mein Gott! A boy, indivisible, divine eternal. We walked along the crimson grove and the silver heather once Vincent’s path.
and so I held my boy’s hand, only carved with five years’ passage — or was it my father holding my hand? — he turned toward me and asked, “but Daddy, what do you mean when you say that you love me more than anything else in the world?”
For isn’t the domain of love infinite, and is every word spoken not a promise eternally ricocheting to the farthest chambers? So speak the truth Dad, and tell me that you are capable, and that you can love not in quantity, but in sacrifice, without prejudice. Stand before me and let the blood coursing through my veins speak to your bones!that I am you and you are me, together we’re eternity, nay, trinity!
I have come before you in the footsteps of Christ, renewed once more as the Son, and the glow of my potential, the homunculus before you, mein Vater, noble alchemist, is thy charge, the pure-essential mandate provident upon thee…
!like an arrow you are my bow, release me as a lance radiant, serve thy universe, and thy vow on that frigid day!
What would you’ve answered to that question? I looked at him, and felt humbled. I had nothing to say! He waited patiently, and when I finally answered, he smiled.
-I.A.T.

…not here, not there